So I made this blog public to my google followers. I have a whopping 5, most of which are family. We'll see if I can remember to keep up with my posts and if anyone reads it!
The daycare search has begun. I made so many calls before A was born, but never visited any places or made any decisions. We are fortunate that the grandmas are each taking the baby a day a week, so we can hopefully afford part time daycare. All the intentions I had to work at home... well, the baby doesn't nap well, and it is nearly impossible to be on the phone when she's awake or could wake up at any minute. So back to work I go, at least a couple days a week for now, then full time when we find a place for her. Tomorrow's the first day we are scouting locations. Never thought it would be this hard!
In other news, C & I joined a gym again. This baby weight needs to come off before I shoot myself. Never mind my preexisting self consciousness & body image issues... tacking on a million pounds does nothing for my self esteem. Vacation in June is my motivation.
Yes, another exciting post by Jen.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
30?!
So I'm 30. And I'm fine with it. It's definitely weird, and I thought I'd have a lot of anxiety surrounding the day, but I didn't. I think Allie has helped that tremendously... even when I'm not sure about where my career is going, if I've made the right decisions, and what I'm going to do when I finally grow up, I know I've accomplished everything I was meant to because I'm her Mommy.
Speaking of work... I'm back at work part time as of today. I've tried to work from home and have come in for a few meetings, but Alexandra doesn't nap well - can't be on the phone with a baby who's awake and can cry at any moment! That's what is causing me anxiety - being apart from the baby. I know Allie is in good hands - Mondays with my mom, Wednesdays with Elaine - but I miss her so much. She is talking up a storm, smiling, and even has a pseudo giggle/cackle that cracks me up. She'll just goo, aah, ma and give us her crooked little gummy smile - especially with Chris. She has full on conversations with her Daddy, and he's amazing with her. She cries a little more now than when she was first born... we jinxed ourselves by telling everyone how calm she was!... and she has full-on screaming fits, but she usually just needs to be cuddled and she settles down.
Allie,
I love you. You still amaze me every day. On the one hand, I wish you could stay this little and cute forever. Your smile still melts my heart, and I never get bored just hanging out with you. I could stare at you forever, play with you, hold you and just cuddle. You've sort of started hugging me when I pick you up... I know it's not on purpose, but I can't wait until you really can give hugs and kisses. I will miss our days together as you start with the Grandmas and eventually go into daycare.
On the other hand, I am so excited see you keep growing and get to know your personality. You are so close to rolling over... I went in to see you this morning (after you slept almost 8 hours! Mommy and Daddy thank you!) and you were on your side, kicking your feet up the side of the crib. Time for Mommy to take the bumpers out so you don't smoosh your face into them! You almost always wiggle out of the swaddle we put you in at night, and usually end up with most of your fist in your mouth, sucking away. No thumbs for you - you want the whole darn hand! You are holding your head up so well, and when I prop you up on a pillow you hold yourself up! You have such strong legs, and will kick when you're lying down like you are swimming or doing a little jig. You even straighten them out and put some weight on them when I hold you up!
You are such a beautiful girl. Everyone tells us how pretty you are - gorgeous actually! - and I know they aren't just saying it to be nice. Your eyes are still dark blue, but Daddy and I think they might be changing to more of a hazel soon. We'll see!
You're getting so big! At your two month appointment on Jan. 19 you were 24 inches and 12 lbs 2 oz... It's amazing for us to look at the pictures from just a few weeks ago and see how much you've grown. You fit from Daddy's palm to his elbow when you were born, but now we need two arms to hold you up! You are thriving - in the 97th percentile for height and 91st for weight. You are outgrowing your clothes so quickly, but I still dress you in them and giggle at how you have to bend your legs to fit in the footie pj's. Sorry, but I have to amuse myself somehow until you can really talk with me! For now, your goos, coos, aaahs, and squeals are the most adorable sounds I've ever heard. You are especially talkative during diaper changes - as soon as you lie down, you start gabbing away and smiling - open mouth, sideways smiles that are as perfect as they are crooked.
Daddy and I love you more and more every day... We are truly blessed with a beautiful, happy, easy going, amazing little baby girl.
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
Speaking of work... I'm back at work part time as of today. I've tried to work from home and have come in for a few meetings, but Alexandra doesn't nap well - can't be on the phone with a baby who's awake and can cry at any moment! That's what is causing me anxiety - being apart from the baby. I know Allie is in good hands - Mondays with my mom, Wednesdays with Elaine - but I miss her so much. She is talking up a storm, smiling, and even has a pseudo giggle/cackle that cracks me up. She'll just goo, aah, ma and give us her crooked little gummy smile - especially with Chris. She has full on conversations with her Daddy, and he's amazing with her. She cries a little more now than when she was first born... we jinxed ourselves by telling everyone how calm she was!... and she has full-on screaming fits, but she usually just needs to be cuddled and she settles down.
Allie,
I love you. You still amaze me every day. On the one hand, I wish you could stay this little and cute forever. Your smile still melts my heart, and I never get bored just hanging out with you. I could stare at you forever, play with you, hold you and just cuddle. You've sort of started hugging me when I pick you up... I know it's not on purpose, but I can't wait until you really can give hugs and kisses. I will miss our days together as you start with the Grandmas and eventually go into daycare.
On the other hand, I am so excited see you keep growing and get to know your personality. You are so close to rolling over... I went in to see you this morning (after you slept almost 8 hours! Mommy and Daddy thank you!) and you were on your side, kicking your feet up the side of the crib. Time for Mommy to take the bumpers out so you don't smoosh your face into them! You almost always wiggle out of the swaddle we put you in at night, and usually end up with most of your fist in your mouth, sucking away. No thumbs for you - you want the whole darn hand! You are holding your head up so well, and when I prop you up on a pillow you hold yourself up! You have such strong legs, and will kick when you're lying down like you are swimming or doing a little jig. You even straighten them out and put some weight on them when I hold you up!
You are such a beautiful girl. Everyone tells us how pretty you are - gorgeous actually! - and I know they aren't just saying it to be nice. Your eyes are still dark blue, but Daddy and I think they might be changing to more of a hazel soon. We'll see!
You're getting so big! At your two month appointment on Jan. 19 you were 24 inches and 12 lbs 2 oz... It's amazing for us to look at the pictures from just a few weeks ago and see how much you've grown. You fit from Daddy's palm to his elbow when you were born, but now we need two arms to hold you up! You are thriving - in the 97th percentile for height and 91st for weight. You are outgrowing your clothes so quickly, but I still dress you in them and giggle at how you have to bend your legs to fit in the footie pj's. Sorry, but I have to amuse myself somehow until you can really talk with me! For now, your goos, coos, aaahs, and squeals are the most adorable sounds I've ever heard. You are especially talkative during diaper changes - as soon as you lie down, you start gabbing away and smiling - open mouth, sideways smiles that are as perfect as they are crooked.
Daddy and I love you more and more every day... We are truly blessed with a beautiful, happy, easy going, amazing little baby girl.
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
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